Disclosure: all of the below points have been drafted the night right after i finished the 4 tests. Yes! people go back eat well and sleep well, and my mind comes back with an article of what I learned over the last 6 months. I was thinking I will post this from a place of winning, but here we are, the day after I found out I haven’t been selected and thus I am not through to the next round, at Starbucks, drying my tears, and deciding I will post it anyway! If it has some added value to just one person out there, then that’s already good enough!
- There is a fine line between “I’ll sleep when I’m dead” and “I really need to sleep”. Don’t cross it! 💀
- Perspective is key! I choose to approach everything as an adventure. Seeking l’internat was no difference. I chose to see this journey as the best days of my life. I am learning almost all day everyday! In the nicest setting possible (hello villa Roosevelt!), sipping on coffee everyday! Working on my own schedule and not having to answer to anyone at all! What more can I ask for?! I lost view of this vision on some days and the stress got to me, but I would always find my way back to it.
- God is great! Always! and God loves me. Studying out till late at night and then having to make it back to my place.. the amount of times I found myself in dangerous situations where things could have gone really wrong!! and I was saved by his grace in the most spectacular of ways.. is incredible! (if you want specific stories, message me 😉 )
- I am stronger than I often give myself credit for. I am a finisher. If I start then see you at the finish line! I might crawl there, but I will get there!
- Life goes on! Since the minute I got the news, the only pressing thought I have is: What’s next? Where do I go from here? What do I do with my life now? I had a clear path and now it’s been wiped out. As I write this I still don’t know where I’ll go from here, but I know I’ll be placing one foot in front of the other, taking it as it comes, one step at a time.
- I work best under high pressure. (insert ‘cocotte’ joke here) The Adrenalin moves me. I know I’ll be good in some emergency medicine speciality.
- I am a life long learner. I love learning, no matter the field. If I am learning then I am beaming and I am thriving! Believe it or not, it’s only been one day and I have examined the questions we got and my study material to check what I missed and where I went wrong. It’s all lessons! You learn and you move forward with the learning you’ve acquired.
- Routines are important. I am a person who looooooves change. As big as moving countries and as small as taking a different way to the coffee-shop I go to everyday and walking new streets, getting lost discovering new neighbourhoods of Casablanca. Buut! you have to have some sort of routine if you’re gonna focus on one goal for a long stretch of time. Mine involved studying at the same coffee place everyday, trying to get to the gym at least twice a week, and the most important one specially during the last month was to get down to the mat to do yoga every night. It was so important to me and it helped me let go of the day no matter how it went, one day at a time, whether it was a great study day or a smashed potato 😉 kind of day. I let go of it, to start again tomorrow!
- What works for others might not work for you. I kind of came to this realisation a bit late during the process, and I was like “wait a minute! why am I going about this this way just because everyone else goes about it the same?!” I couldn’t stop and hit restart then, but I know that if I have to do this again, I’ll do it pretty differently.
- Everything happens for a reason! This is definitely my biggest lesson of 2019 and it is a continuous practice: trying to approach everything with a “ok, what is this teaching me?” mindset rather than “why is this happening to me?”.
- My circumstances are different from the others but that is okay. I am sure very few, if any, sat at night between the two exam days pondering and weighing the pros and cons of whether to take their sleeping meds and risk falling asleep and not studying as everyone else stayed up to study that night, or not take them and risk the side effects that always come up if they don’t.. I had to ask a friend for a rational input and I decided accordingly…
- Aim high and be specific about it. Aim to get it but also be specific about what you want! Do you wanna be in the first 20? first 10? First, period? The universe (usually) responds. Even if you fall short you will fall close.
- The process is the reward. I am trying to remind myself of this now that it’s over and not dwell on how things turned out. I learned so much, and that is most definitely not lost!
PS: These notes are in no particular order. Like I said they were all drafted on Wednesday January 29th night, no note has been added today, all I did was elaborate on each one of them and I left them in the same order as they came to my mind. Some are more important than others. Some might speak to you and some not. Just take what serves you, and leave the rest 🥰 🥰